Heavy Heart

So two nights ago I just had a really bad Sunday. I cried all day even at church. I was in so much pain there was so much pressure. My heart felt like it was a stone instead of a beating heart. There was so much on my heart that I blew. And one of my friends saw me hurting as hard as a tried to hide it I couldn't her name is Sophia (she is married to Bobby I have told you about them before) she came up to me and asked me what was wrong an I told her an she told me that God loves me because I was his Daughter. An that the things that happened to me wasn't my fault. She told me that she believes in me. An that when it's time I will be forgiven. Then later that night Brian pastor of Cookson Creek (the church I sing for) came up to me an we talked as well. He also asks me about school and how it's going. He cares about my education as much as my parents do. After his sermon he asked if anyone needed to come pray to come up an he would pray with them, an he looked at me the whole  time. And to be honest I knew God wanted me to. There was a pull At my heart but I couldn't go. After I got home I went to my room an cried so hard. I asked friends to pray for me an they did Sophia sent me verses to read and I read them. Now you may be wondering what am I talking about. Well 

  1) A family member found out he has cancer 

   2) last Thanksgiving I was In a really tough spot in my life and my Aunt tried to help, but I wouldn't let her and I hurt Her really  bad. I am better now an I asked for her to forgive me. But she hasn't talked to me and this year will be a full year bit talking to her. 

  3) this will be our second year without Grandma rose and I still miss her so much. 

  An 4) there are some things that I look back an say if I didn't do this...this wouldn't of happened blaming myself. 

   After I read some verses I started feeling better. Even though I was up till 5am crying still I was feeling better. Then yesterday one of my siblings got saved. Today my heart isn't heavy it feels normal and it's thanks to God an my friends You see even though all this is weighing on me I can't feel it anymore because God has it. I keep saying if you need help I am here for you an I mean it all you have to do is comment and I'll respond!! I know this post is a little all over but just remember God loves you and he always will turn a heavy heart into a feather  ❤️

It's been a while,,,

Hey Guys!,
  It has been a while since I have posted anything. So today I am gonna catch you up on my life.
     I got my license a few month ago, and I love it! Driving makes me feel grown up haha :) But it also gives me a chance to help my mom out when she can't go somewhere.
   I am working on my second Cd. It's Called Our Stories And each song is about one of my friends or family member who went through something, and became stronger because of it. I have five songs so far.  I don't know how many songs are going on it yet.
   I also recently got a Facebook. And I'm getting back on Twitter,
        Remember my friend and  teacher Miss Amy?! Well I found out that she is moving, and it makes me sad, But I know that God will keep them safe. So please pray for her and her family.

   I have been getting back on Youtube, and this is a reminder to everyone who can't see the  end of the Tunnel.

I gotta go to church!!! I will post soon
  JESUS LOVES YOU


                                                          Love a Daughter of Jessus
                                                                   Hannah Rose

Blind pt 2

So to day was the blind peoples night and after they were all done eating they sat and chilled out. And I look over and there is a woman who is completely blind, and she had her iPhone, and was texting like she could see. And the leader of the group she had a tablet and made conference calls with no problem! It's amazing how even when they couldn't see they're still just like us. And they don't use their disadvantage as a problem but as a encouragement! It is mind blowing how even though they can see. They can still do things just like us use computers, phones, anything they out there mind to. They went to Ruby Falls and they were talking about how wonderful it was. It's like they get up everyday and just go. Like there is nothing wrong with them. They know what meals we have because they can smell it as they come in the door. They talk to one another like we would I know they are just like us. But they are missing one thing. sight! But that Dosent stop them. I am so amazed and blessed. It was just mind blowing to me. That even though they are blind they can still do and use everything we can. Wow!!!!

Blind pt 1

Other things from camp

So it's been a few weeks since camp now, and I still feel at peace with Jesus. Ya I have messed up a little but we all do. I have been thinking about camp a lot these last few weeks and looking back on what God has done in my life. I keep thinking about my talk with Kurt, Frank, Bethny. And Miss Gina. But most of all mine and Kurts talk. After emptying my alabaster jar that night. When we had our cabin talk I shared my story and told my cabin about what my life felt like after And the next day Kurt came up to me and told me that he herd I told my story and how it was awesome and how proud of me he was, and then Miss Gina came up and gave me a huge and told me how proud she was. And I remember thinking  dose everyone know that I shared my story last night, Kurt, Miss Gina, Bryan. But I knew most of all that Jesus knew I told my story because of him. An after I did I had a lot of people tell me that they had some of the same problems of what happened to them, and asked me to pray for them. Like Kurt, Miss Gina, Frank and Bethney said You never know your story may help others see that they are not the only ones going through it if they see how your dealing with it then they can do the same and they were right . 

    Another thing that still is so moving was the last night of camp there were two days that changed my life forever. The night of mine and Kunrts talk and the service, and the last  night of camp. Before Kurt started to talk he said Everyone is gonna move tonight. There will not be one person who has not moved. There are three groups 1 The people who need to receave Christ. 2 the people who need to be baptized. And 3 the people who need Boldness. And he was right I was crying not because I was sad but because not one person rejected God. I was in the Boldness! I needed boldness to come back in this world and not be the old Hannah, but the Daughter of Jesus Hannah. When the song "lead me to the cross" played and it says ' bring me to my knees where your love poured out' for the first time in my life I dropped on my knees and prayed to God I didn't care who was around it was just God. And I. I was the last one to get up and Miss Gina found me she said I was burning up, and I honestly think it was Jesus! She asked me what was wrong and I told her that I was scared that this year would end up like all the others I would come back into reality and be the old Hannah and I emptyed my alabaster jar I didn't have it and I didn't want a new one. She understood and told me to think about what Kurt talked about boldness to be that even when things get tough. Jesus is there to lean on. And she was right. And so was Kurt. He blessed me in a big way that no one had ever I know that Jesus was working in his heart. And in mine The last day of camp In the morning we had baptisiam we baptized 40 people that morning and I think like 30 that night ( I think but it was a BIG number ) point is we had so many new brothers and sisters in Christ!  I had a friend who struggled in her life and for two years I poured Into her and guess what Kurt baptized her! And he baptized my new friends. The very first night people moved and I saw Jesus working, I still can't believe that this year was hands down the best. Not only for me but for so many others. We all are gonna have bad days and hard days but Jesus loves us guys always ask him for love for forgiveness. The day I got back from camp and I got a letter that hit me hard it felt like a bolet hit my heart and that I had a HUGE hole. And I felt betried, and I thought about camp and I didn't hurt anymore ya I felt like what I had to say didn't matter or what I felt, but I love her no matter what she did. Do I forgive her yes I do. Dose it still hurt a little now that I get letters and she talks about it ya. But I Iove her because she is a child and beautiful daughter of Christ. My sin is no better then her's to Jesus it's all the same! But remembering camp got me through to the heart. Because thinking about it staying in that point in time is what got me through it. Everyday I pray for everyone at camp. I also pray that when things get hard or when it's just a normal day that I remember my talks and how much I felt blessed  And that I am still feeling that . I love that God can take people like Kurt put them at a camp for a week and change a life in one night Jesus moves through people in so many amezing ways. I still can't thank him enough for my youth pastor Bryan, and for Miss Gina, Frank, Bethney, Kurt, Trent, my new friends, my church, and best of all Jesus Christ! If you think that this whole Christian thing isn't for you....your wrong if you give God a chance he can change for for the rest of your life. I remember Kurt saying when you get saved at the ages of 6,7,8 or even 9. You don't understand the impact that sin can have on you, and what it can really can do to you! Unlike getting saved at like 17,18 or 19 and he is right I got saved at 7 and I never knew the impact of other people's sin and my own could do. But I know that no matter what age God loves us and will NEVER leave us! You may read this and. Not feel a thing if that is the right answer then pray to God to open your heart and then read. I don't share this just to tell you what camp did for me, or what I got out of the talks I had with Everyone. I blog to share about God to tell you that he LOVES you  now more then ever. Yes there will be rough times but he is there! I don't tell you about mine and Kurt's talk just to talk about it but to tell you what God did and said through a guy who could understand me and who loves Jesus so much that he was willing to help open my eyes. Or through Miss Gina and frank and Bethney. I don't tell you just for the sake  of telling, but to show you out of Four people God said the same thing but in differnt ways that I could understand. Kurt didn't talk about our talk in his sermon to embarrass me or make me mad. He said to tell people so that they know their not the only ones who can be a light in their family or for people  who need to empty their alabaster jar. Or to hit it to me nine times as hard to really push me to want to do that. And after doing that I feel free like a HUGE weight has been lifted off that I had been caring for a long time. If Jesus can take a Rag like me and use me for something great. He can use you for something you never thought of and maybe save someone's life. That's why I blog that's why I'm sharing you my camp experience, and I prsyvthat it blesses you and tells you that you have someone there all the time 

   love a Daughter of Jeusus

        Hannah Rose

Pics from camp an the last few weeks

Me, D, Shade. , Aj, and Raven

All of us the last day of camp 

Savannah, me , D, Aj, and Shade 

Out boulton, for church after camp my youth pastor baptizing from camp

All the pic of me, D, shade, Aj, and Raven

Cj 

D, and me wearing his sunglasses 

Aj, Cj, me , D, Shade, Ds sister. And savannah 

 D, and I 

Aj and I 

Savannah, D , and Shade taking selfies

Blair and I from camp 

Here are some pictures from camp and with my new friends I love then so much I will have a post about each of then when I get the time 

Lightning

Have you ever just sat and watched lightning from far away? Well I am right now. It's 1:17am right now and I am looking outside and there is lightning behind the mt. Have you ever thought of lightning being like our lives? You may be like what is she talking about well.. Think about it.... We say that our human lives are a flash live one moment gone the next just like lightning. It's here one moment gone the next until a different one strikes. Never the same bolt. Have you ever had a dream that you wanted to go for, but never had the guts to make it happen, or was just to scared to reach for it. And then you wish you did? Or did you ever go back on a word and later say man I should of done that. Or said goodbye. Or see you tomorrow an there's no tomorrow? There's always if I did this then this would of happened. Or if I stayed one more day I could of been there to be with her before she passed. We think about everything after it happens. We don't think about the before. But God does. He knows why you didn't go or why you didn't say something that could of changed the situation. Instead of saying the what ifs why don't we say yes....yes I'll help you....yes I will go to your ball game... Yes I'll stay with you tonight in the HP so your not alone. Our lives will be over before we know it like a flash if lightning. Why don't we start making it count ya life is busy life is hard. But can't we take ten minutes to pray or five to ask Jesus into your life. Or an hour or two for church every Sunday morning. And have a family dinner after. Or take a week an to church camp. That year just might be your year like this one was mine. Ya life can get in the way but you don't have to let it. Don't give up so easily don't give in to the shroud of  you should love your family yes even the ones who hurt you . Love your friends...LOVE JESUS and if you don't know him you can today. Do you know that you that you know if you were to die today that you are going to Heaven?! Or are you asking your self will I? Well if you don't know say that prayer follow Jesus love him so then you do know 100%. Is life perfect and easy after being saved....being honest no, but it's so worth it. Know  that he loves us even more WHEN WE MESS UP! Why? Because we are his children, his lambs and he is our shepherd, he is our umbrella when it's raining. He's out shelter when we don't have a home. He is the breathtaking man who gave HIs life or all of us. He knew what was coming and he could of easily said wow father I'm not doing this BUT HE DIDN'T...he didn't give up on us. So don't give up  on life. Don't give up on friends . Or family.  Don't give up your faith. Don't give up your dreams. Or your plans to do things with your day. Because like lightning you never know when you'll strike and leave this earth! 

Our Stories

So my new album is about our stories, and how Christ can change us Here are three new songs i write at camp.

                                                                  A's Story
                                                                  Song #4
                                            Whenever you feel alone, i am here
                                          When your mom is drinking i am here
                                        When you need to let it go, i am waiting
                                                All my sin is nothing to you.
                                                                oh oh oh
                                                           Nothing to you
                You are here when the rain is falling and i have no umbrella, your my cover.
                                        Your my shelter when i have no home
                                Your my strength when i am weak and have no will 
                                             Help me be a light to you Lord,
                 Let my flam burn, and burn so hot that people can see a difference in me
                         Please don't fail me Lord, for you gave your only son for me
                                   I am alone in this world, but I'm not with you
                                   Fill my heart oh God, and help me to change
                            Not for a moment, or a day, but for the rest of my life.



                                                             Life
                                                          Song #5
                                For the rest of my life i will hold on to you.
                                          I will praise your great name
                                             I Will love you Lord
                    As hard as thing s may get, you are always there for me
             Your my path when i start to wonder off in the wrong direction
                   You are the hand that reaches out when i'm drowning
     Your the voice that tells me no when i want to go down the wrong direction
                     Lord your my net that catches me when i am falling
                           You forgive me as many times as it takes
                     I love you Lord because you died and rose for me


           
                  
                                                             Try
                                                         Song #6
                                   When i try to walk o water, I can't
                                          When i try to heal, I can't
                                 When i try to escape my past i can't
                                          No not without you Lord
                                                   Ohhh Ohhh
                                               No not without you
                               I am nothing compared to what i can be
                                 Your everything yes everything i need
                     I may cry myself to sleep everyday for the rest of my life
                                         I may fail you over and over
                            But Lord, you love me no matter what i do
                                                         Ya
                   You love me everyday of every hour, no matter what i do
                         No matter how many times i fail you love me
                                                         ohhhh
                     God, i am your child, and your my amazing Grace
#6

Camp Cherokee 2014

So June 21-26 was camp, and i would of shared about it sooner but i have been crazy busy with work so here i am. So camp. i have gone three years in a row and hands down this year was the most moving, wonderful, God filled,  life changing year out of all three years. and i am gonna tell you why.  This year it was called "What's Your Story" and the he guy who spoke this year His name was Kurt, and the first thing you would say is how cool his outfits are lol :) But when he spoke and he talked about God. You knew he was the real deal. He had a ruff life, but he never gave up. The first night he talked about the Alabaster Jar, and how the woman whom Jesus forgave threw her's away. When she could of very well kelp it on her shelf and when times got hard enough she could of used it, but she didn't she got rid of it. And she wept when she saw Jesus and washed his feet with her tears, and dried it with her hair. After that sermon my heart was heavy Because i started thinking that i didn't have a story. So the first two days i felt so far from God and i felt like he was leaving me. I felt all the pain i had put away for so long. It at last came out and came out hard. everytime Trent did worship and i saw the words Darkness, or Empty i cried, I couldn't even sing. All i could do was cry. I had many people talk to me but the Four people who are still in my thoughts are Gina My Sunday school teacher, Frank a guy who came for the day then told his story and left that night, Bethney a new friend, and Kurt a new friend and speaker.
   Miss Gina talked from the first day to the end and even now. i told her why i didn;t think my story was worth telling and that no one would want to hear. She told me that Jesus let the things that did for a reason and that i am feeling the Guilt and pain because i am tricking myself that it was my fault, and it wasn't. she kept praying for me, and she never gave up on me.
  Frank was a guy whom i met on the 23 At night every night after worship we would do a fire and an adult would tell their story. an Frank was the person that night, But at the time i didn't know that. I saw a Faithful guy who smiled and laughed all that day and i could see Jesus in Him the moment i saw him. So i was putting my stuff on a chair and i was going over my music and i saw him sitting by me. i thought in my mind I really want to say hi, but i don;t want him to think i strang, or a bother.  But i went and said hi anyways, and i told him that i was sorry for not being happy i was struggling, he asked why and i told him what i told miss Gina, and he said the same thing.But he also said that i could be a light in my family. But to ALWAYS LOVE JESUS no matter what. Later that night he told his story and he had a ruff life but he was a light in his family and because of Jesus loving him and Frank not giving up his family are Christians.
  Franks introduced me to Betheny, and her life was like mine and i told her my story. We prayed and had a very emotional prayer, but God placed the same words and Gina, and Frank, and i was like wow.
  At last Kurt. He had been speaking four nights now and the first day i was in tears and asked to talk to him, But he was three days late :) When we at last got to i told him about my story, and he told me some of his, and some was the same same some was different, and he told me  Everything comes back to the alabaster Jar, she could of put it back on her shelf and when things got hard she could have used it, but when she repented to Jesus she poured it out. and never looked at it again, He told me there were two kinds of Guilt. Fake guilt and gult. Fake guilt is when you think it was your fault and you blame yourself,  and guilt is when you feel bad for a moment but then it's gone. and i had Fake guilt. and that my alabaster jar was guilt, and i needed to let it go pour it out and never go back, then an hour later was his sermon and before it even started i felt a burning in my heart.  and during the service he talked about what we talked about with the alabaster jar and how i can be a light in my family. i left and cried so hard for an hour and i gave it up. I told miss Gina and she cried. and said she was praying for me during the whole time, after Frank's story i found him and said thank you and gave me a hug, then found Kurt and told him i that i emptied my alabaster jar and let it go. He told me that he was proud of me. and that i can be a light in my family. Then next day they could see a change in me i felt different, I made new friends whom even now have a wonderful friendship and faith filled relationship.  that day that everyone  saw a difference in me God used me for someone else and i was able to be used by him, and show God through me, and i was able to make three new songs, i will put a new post for that, But when things get hard i remember this year at camp and Kurt and our talk along with everyone else and i feel like i'm at camp.
                                                                         My Story
When i was seven i was saved, my papa showed me the stars and told me that we are like the stars we are God's children and he knows everyone of us. after he passed i was at home and i looked at the stars and remembered what he told me and i wanted to be a child of him, so i went  to my parents and i got saved. after being saved life was hard all my life people did things to me i did things to myself and try to leave God, but i couldn't he would 't let me go. And now i am changed and i got baptized last year, and yes i have lost people in my life, and yes i have done things, but we all do, But the best part is that GOD LOVES US EVEN MORE WHEN WE MESS UP. i am trying to be a light in my family and at work, and i will never give up. i am willing to give my life if that is what it takes if someone asks me what's my religion i will say christian, i love Jesus and i love him even more knowing that even when i mess up God still loves me and will never give up. Thank you Jesus for my life, and my reason for being here.

 Thank you to my LORD, savior, and the man who saved me life  Jesus Christ. To My father God to Brian, Miss Gina, Frank, Betheny, and Kurt, And to everyone in my life now i love you guys, thank you for a life changing experience. I will never forget it.

                                                       A Daughter of Jesus
                                                      Hannah Rose Amelung 

To Selena with love Chris Perez

This is a book that Chris Perez wrote a couple months ago! It's about a Beautful, wonderful, talented, soulful, strong, inspirational, princess of God  A woman named Selena Quintanilla Perez! She was a Mexican-American who loved everyone she met,  She and Chris met when he joined Selena ye Los Dos. And they fell in love! After she was brudly murdered by Yolanda Saldivar. Chris couldn't bear the he lost of her. He can't kiss  or hug her anymore. So a centry later after March 31st 1995 he devoted himself to writing this book for her and us the fans! He opens up about their forbidden relationship! About who she really was even off TV of winning awards. He was showing the REAL Selena. About them loaping.  He even talks about the tragic day when Selena died by the hands of Yolanda. I can write the book out but I can't  give the same meaning as you reading it for yourself. God had his hand on this whole thing.So for all the Selena fans this is something you can read and read again and never get tired of learning more about their marriage. And love for one another. When I read this book it opened my eyes to why I love Selena and her music, and why God was so proud of her! So thank you Chris for letting us see more of Selena the emotional, loving. Star we all can look up to and know that God has blessed her! We love you and we love Selena! 

Did you know

Did you know that air plains fly high in the sky?, or that strawberry shortcake is a cartoon? Ya we do know this it's silly to ask huh? Well  is it silly to ask if you know  that you are a child of Jesus, and that he loves you no matter what you do? Even if you had a baby at 16 or 17! Even if you were dranking and didn't think about it and got in your car are drove and something happened. Even if you walk away from God his arms are still open to you. God created this earth and he will never distory it again. He will never leave you. Your his prince or princess, and if you have never known Jeaus as you savior... It's never to late to know about him! See that's that most wonderful part of Jesus :) that he never says. Well I died for you and you're taking forever to decide so I'm gonna say no you can't come into my kingdom because it's to late for you cause you took so long to say yes. No he never says that, but you have to remember that if you were to die today right now would you be confident that you were going to Heaven that your saved! That when God himself looks at your heart instead of all the sin and shame or that  he'll see his son Jesus in your heart! Even though it's never to late to invit Jesus into your life us as humans it can be we don't know the time the hour or minute that we will die, but God does! Now after being saved life is easy. You wil be made fun of. Maybe even punished, BUT no matter what Jesus is with you all the way! He will never leave you. I have a wonderful, beautiful friend who grew up as a Muslim, and when she herd about Jesus she wanted to follow him. So when became a Christian, her family didn't like that, they would beat her, take her places  in the trunk, did everything to keep her from being Christian. She was living in Hell, But when she got married to a wonderfully talented man, and they had there wedding, her parents came for the first time her family came into a church. And she says even today she was thankful that Jesus never left she got to feel him more through every hit. Exa, because she knows how Jesus felt in a way, and it made her closer to Jesus! Some of her family are Christians, but in not sure how many, but one Act can change your whole life for the beat or worst, but no matter what happens Jesus loves you and is with  you! Don't let it be to late for you! John 3 v16 "So God so loved the world that he gave his only son, and who ever belives in him will never die but have everlasting life" 

Did you know

Did you know that air plains fly high in the sky?, or that strawberry shortcake is a cartoon? Ya we do know this it's silly to ask huh? Well  is it silly to ask if you know  that you are a child of Jesus, and that he loves you no matter what you do? Even if you had a baby at 16 or 17! Even if you were dranking and didn't think about it and got in your car are drove and something happened. Even if you walk away from God his arms are still open to you. God created this earth and he will never distory it again. He will never leave you. Your his prince or princess, and if you have never known Jeaus as you savior... It's never to late to know about him! See that's that most wonderful part of Jesus :) that he never says. Well I died for you and you're taking forever to decide so I'm gonna say no you can't come into my kingdom because it's to late for you cause you took so long to say yes. No he never says that, but you have to remember that if you were to die today right now would you be confident that you were going to Heaven that your saved! That when God himself looks at your heart instead of all the sin and shame or that  he'll see his son Jesus in your heart! Even though it's never to late to invit Jesus into your life us as humans it can be we don't know the time the hour or minute that we will die, but God does! Now after being saved life is easy. You wil be made fun of. Maybe even punished, BUT no matter what Jesus is with you all the way! He will never leave you. I have a wonderful, beautiful friend who grew up as a Muslim, and when she herd about Jesus she wanted to follow him. So when became a Christian, her family didn't like that, they would beat her, take her places  in the trunk, did everything to keep her from being Christian. She was living in Hell, But when she got married to a wonderfully talented man, and they had there wedding, her parents came for the first time her family came into a church. And she says even today she was thankful that Jesus never left she got to feel him more through every hit. Exa, because she knows how Jesus felt in a way, and it made her closer to Jesus! Some of her family are Christians, but in not sure how many, but one Act can change your whole life for the beat or worst, but no matter what happens Jesus loves you and is with  you! Don't let it be to late for you! John 3 v16 "So God so loved the world that he gave his only son, and who ever belives in him will never die but have everlasting life" 

Yesterday was a Weird Day

Yesterday I had a weird day! What do I mean you may ask? Well I will tell you.

First off  I talked my Cuz, and Aunt whom I Haven’t talked to since I moved witch was almost three years ago. And when I talked to my cuz I realized how much I miss my Childhood  home, and the place I grew up ever since I was 16 months. Ky was the only place I knew the only place I made friends, had family live across my house, have neighborhood get together or having a driveway Dessert party every now and then just celebrating one another. I miss the School I ever knew Beachwood was a good school sure they didn’t help me as much as I needed but   I had fieldtrips, made best friends, my first  love, softball, watched my older brother play Football,  Sixth Grade Graduation, FCA  Meetings ever Wed Night. Walk to Kroger with friends on the days I didn’t have Softball. Get a ride from a High School Guy (I know) But his family were Great Friends with my family so it was ok. Or sitting in the Hot Gym for my two oldest brothers Graduation J I miss walking seven miles to school in Rain, Snow, Sunny, Humid, Cool days. I miss swimming at my neighbor’s pool lol. Everything there in Ky. I miss so much. It’s Amazing how  when your in that moment living at that place or in that moment you don’t know how much you will miss it until it’s gone.  My Cuz could tell by my voice that something was wrong, My goal in life is to go back to Ky and get married maybe. And to live there. I don’t care if I have to live in a apt. I will.. there is no place right now where I want to be but is back home. Where I grew up. But I have to realize that where I am right now I am here for something, and I have met some wonderful people like, Bobby&Sophia, Miss Amy, Miss Sarah, Miss Gina, Abbye, Kylie, Bryan, Mr. Allen, Mr. Stave, and so many others. If I never came here to live I would of never met them. You know. Yes I miss Ky so much everytime I think about that place and everyone one I left including my passable Futer Husband By God’s will, I know that I have so many wonderful people here right now. Yes I am going back to My childhood place, but right now I need to try to i=enjoy living here while i’m here you know. So yes Cuz there is something that is bothering me and making me feel a little down, and it’s this!  I am so thankful for all the mesmerizes I have and will build. But my heart is set on coming back to where I was raised and brought up until I was 15.  But if I never came here I never would of met my Best German Friend ever Meltida  earthier , and I wouldn’t have the job I have either. So I just want to say Thank you God for everything and if it’s your will Bless me when I go back, but also bless me right here right now

i got baptized last night

it was the most amazing feeling ever so glad i did it!!!!!!!

Happy Thanksgiving!!!!

First Off Happy Thanksgiving!!! I am here in Nashville with my family, after Thanksgiving i will post some pictures up of my family and i, A lot is going on. like of chores getting our feast ready lol. but remembering  moments in our lives that that really matter and make the holidays the holidays, My most Favorite time for Thanksgiving is sharing the times we have had. Even though there are things that hurt us, we can still be thankful. for the lives we have and the friendship, love, joy, and happiness, But this year remember the people who need help, food, shelter, and cloths. Two years ago, i went to a soup kitchen for Thanksgiving, and served people and helped give them things, they don't have. after we were done, they gave us loves of bread, and this was my cuz, and his friend and i. when we walked out of the building we saw three people who had bags with their cloths, we stopped them and gave them our loaves of bread. Yes we could of had it for ourselves, but they had no food, and it made us feel good, By the way just for the record, Even if you're not a Christian, or any religion, you can still give things to people and feel good about it. No matter what you do, you can do anything for someone and feel good about it, knowing that you helped someone, and made them feel like someone cares for them, and that they are not alone. Even just a card helps people and makes them feel cared for them, Man even a little prayer for them feel like someone cares.. yes they may say that they don't care for a prayer, but honestly they feel cared for, So this Thanksgiving Pray, Love, Give, and think about the moments you have had in the past and give thanks

 

What is wrong?

When your mad, or upset don't you hate it when people are seeing if your ok, or want to help but then you get stabbed in the back!!!! Then you think you can't trust them anymore because you tell them something, and then they tell someone else something, Then you don't know who to trust even if they are Godly in Jesus?! Well i have had that happen so many times and it ticks me off over the edge. And it may do that to you. Because it's like you pour your heart out to them, and the next thing you know they eather do something that makes you REALLY mad, or just makes you feel like that trust is gone. Well just know you can trust someone and that is GOD he knows everything about you and he doesn't care he loves you for you don''t ever forget that

I can't stop hidding, But you won't stop seeking

You know when someone says let’s play hid and seek you hid and I’ll seek you? Well we as sinners do a LOT of hiding. We hid things from parents, friends, people. Or we hid things were not allowed to have. Or we try to hide from God. But did you know that we can’t hide from God. He always sees us no matter what we do where we are. We try to hide from God a lot. Like me this week I tried to hid a relationship I wasn’t allowed to have, When my parents found out they were not happy. I tried to hide it from them, and that wasn’t right of me. I thought that I knew best, and that I could do it myself, but I was wrong, (if you’re a parent your probably saying Amen or you got that right) .and it’s true, when I do become a mother I wouldn’t want me child to hide things like that. And I have been trying to hide my feelings from God but He already knows. But yet he keeps finding me where I am. I try to hide behind a door, and he finds me because he is right there. We can’t stop trying to hide, But Jesus Christ never stopped seeking the poor, Neglected, coin collectors,  SINNERS LIKE YOU AND ME. Us as sinners think we can hide from God ,that he can’t see what we do, or don’t do. When we are alone (like you are in your room and don’t see anyone but yourself) we think we are truly alone, but were not. God, Jesus Christ, and the Holy Sprite (if your saved) is there right by you. So you can’t hide like you could when you were ten years old and you hid in a box from your friend, and he found you at last.. In the Bible God says I am with you every day, everywhere, and you can’t hide anything from me. He knows what you’re going to do before you do it. He knows what your goanna say before you say it.  So even through you think you can hide from God and when he is ready he’ll find you in 35 min. you can’t so we need to stop thinking we can play hide and seek with God, because we can’t he doesn’t even need to seek or find us because he’s there anyways. Think about that the next time you try to play hide and seek with God. If you do tell me how it goes :) 

This proves God keeps me going

So i have a funny story to tell you!!!, So yesterday i went in at nine in the morning. For Housecleaning the cabins. I have to go to work at Two, and it's like around one-thirty. So Candy (The manger on house cleaning) asks Clark if i can help until Four- (we had a group coming at four-Thirty) And he said yes so she and I go and clean a cabin with 48 Beds and two bathrooms by our selves. so then at four-thirty we go and work in the kitchen. by six o'clock were done So Candy and i  go and clean three outside bathroom buildings. we finish by Seven. And i clock out and i go to the Office. and My friends Tim and LB were in their. and they both had to leave the office so LB asked me if i could hold the fort down. I asked him if the phone rings what do i say he says "Ocoee Retreat Center This is Hannah" So they both left. a few kids came to get candy and drinks., and the phone rings. I say "Ocoee Retreat Center This is Hannah" and a lady is on 64 and asked how to get here, well i didn't know where that way. so i pressed Hold and LB came in and i told him, and he helped her. Then We both answered phones and did the cashiering. Then the ladies how were lost got there and came to the office. and said they were sopost to have dinner at eight LB and i looked at one another and i told him no one was planed to eat at eight, so i ran into the Kitchen and looked in the cooler. and i saw pizzas, and i knew that we had hamburgers in the cooler as well. So LB called Zane ( one of my bosses) and he told him that i was here, and there were people who were planed to eat at eight and we had nothing for them. and LB told him i was still there. and i could do whatever. Zane was surprised that i was still there. ( mind you i was clocked out)  and Zan said to do whatever. So LB told me to clock in and do something for them. So i RUN into the kitchen and turn the oven on and Run back into the cooler and get Pizzas, Four of them. i get soap water ready and sensitizer Wash ready . i put the pzzas in and it's Eight-Thirty now. while the pizzas are cooking. i get bags of chips, and cookies ready in a box. and Then by Eight-Fority-five their dinner is ready. well when i was taking the pizzas out Chase pops out of no where, and asked if i need help. so LB,Chase and I take the Pizzas, Chips and Cookies up to their cabin. So From Nine AM to nine PM. i did Cleaning, Kitchen, Cleaning, Office, and Kitchen . and Office, and Kitchen i did on my own,

    So when i went in today everyone was talking about me. and that night and how i saved them. I had 11.2 Hours in the one day. i was so tired. lol

    So what is new with you

Love you

Hannah
Rose

Who are you

                         ( i know it's Carrie Underwood, but it thought the lyrics went it what i'm writing about)

Who are you?   I  was going through some old papers, and i came across a paper From a class at Lifeway. And it  asks Who are you like in the Bible. As Woman…. So I Thought I could make my own and You choose who you’re like. And if you’re not any of these Maybe we should start. 

Who are you like.

Easter ( The book of Easter) Orphaned and raised by her Uncle, Easter was soon loved by a King. In her story, there is espionage, deception, and evil villain, and a lovely Woman who comes to realize that she must use her position and opportunity for the greater good. (DECISIVENESS)

Hagar (Genesis 16 &21) God had long  promised  to Abraham that he would bless him with numerous offspring. As the stars in the Heavens and the sand upon the sea shore . As he and Sarah grew older, it became obvious that this seed was not going to come through Sarah. At least, that was Sarah’s assessment of the situation. After thinking through the dilemma, she developed an alternate solution that involved a vulnerable slave Woman (FAITH)

Hannah (1 Samuel 1) Was a woman of powerful prayer and faithfulness in keeping her promises to God. She teaches us the proper way to approach and view our troubles and our adversaries. (DEVOTION)

Daughter of Pharaoh  ( Exodus 2:1~10)  The daughter of pharaoh was a minister of God! She did not know she was a minister of God. Being recovered by godly judges. And then  rejecting  God again. Among the many judges who ruled over the Israelites  at that  took in a Hebrew baby and rose him to be a man of God.(DECISIVENESS)

There are so many more woman in the bible. If you aren’t like any of these four look in the bible and see of you are like any. If you aren’t pray about it. You can become one!

Save a life today!!!!

Last night I was watching a movie called  “To save a life” and there was a guy named Luke, and he had a black friends named  Robert, and Robert felt like no one  cared about him and how. No one cared about how he felt or what he did for a living. All he did was suffer. And no one was hearing him. And it showed him as a Freshman then in his Senior Year he brought a  to his school. And he shot it at the roof. Luke saw him and went to him and said that he didn’t have to do that. But Robert said it was to Late and that no one cared about him and he shot himself…Luke had a girl friend and he or she was not a Christian. And one day they went to a party  and got drink…So his girl friend Amy stole his truck and he was left on the street.. Well two days before was Robert’s Funeral and a youth pastor named Chris was there. And gave his card to Luke..so he called him for a ride. And on the way to Luke’s house. They stopped by Robert’s house and He felt like it was his fault. That Robert was dead. Because he didn’t help him and see that he was having a hard time with his life, and felt so helpless. But then Chris said that Robert came to his church and he didn’t so anything. When he walked in. so The next day was Sunday and Luke went to Chris’ church for the first time. And he started to Trust in Jesus Christ.  And he kelp going and one day he got save. Well a guy was thinking of killing himself at Luke’s School he was a past friend of Robert’s..and Luke found out that this guy was feeling lost and wanted to stop his life. And Luke asked this guy Johnny if he wanted to eat lunch with him. And He said no…But within a few days Johnny eat lunch with Luke and Amy. And the church that Luke went to started a lunch group at their school. And All of them ate and helped one another.

      I’m not gonna say the whole thing because you need to watch it yourself. But it was such an eye opener. That there are teen even now wanting to end their life….Well if you are reading this, and your one of them, Know that God cares. And he loves you sosososo Much, and he doesn’t care How you look. Or what you do. But he cares about your thoughts, Feeling, wants, And you ARE NEVER ALONE, I pray for you that you  know that even though I don’t know you I care. And Jesus Christ cares, even if you don’t Believe that there is a God..He is there..and HE LOVES YOU, and CARES about your wants and NEEDS. And I pray for EVERYONE on this world even though I don’t know you. I still pray for you. When people need help Don’t push them aside like yesterday’s Leftovers . Even if you don’t like how they look or seem to be…Well there is no other way to say it. You won’t know what they are like if you never meet them, and try to help them.

   I have yelled at God. In fact I did on Thursday. And no I’m not proud of it, I have felt so alone, and like I am not wanted. But I know that even though Satan stabs my heart with many things, and bad memories I have had…I know the  LORD MY,,,AND YOUR GOD LOVES ME AND YOU!!!!!  Please Don’t let someone slip through your fingers like the sand on the beach, when you pick it up it just goes straight through your fingers. Please Don’t let a person slip just like the sand in your hand. Because you never know if what they say will be there last word, or day.

Jeremiah 29;11 Says

“For I know the Plains I HAVE FOR YOU says THE LORD plains for GOOD not evil., plains for HOPE and a FUTER.” God Loves you so much, There are people who will help you and who will Hear what you have to say. And who will talk to you. Please don’t give up on life.. Even if it feels like the only way because trust me, IT’S NOT. Jesus loves you . and we as Christian, or Jews, Or Muslims, and even people who don’t know Christ or Don’t believe in him. Whoever you are. You can still save a life, you can still Be a Life Saver. And save there life. Because right now every day of every 3 min someone is ending their life because of something or someone one. Don’t be a Turtle and stick your head in and stay in that shell. Stick your head out and Save a life.

Jesus Loves you And I hope this blog helped anyone who needs help right now. I pray for you every day! If you have something to say or have a prayer request Just Comment Below!! !!Because ia m here and willing to help you!!!! And with Jesus on my side. We can get you through Whatever is hammering you down

  JESUS LOVES YOU don't give up!!!

my new chapter starts

So April 9th i had me sweet 16, and it is a new fresh chapter. God has a book about each of us. and because he knows. what will happen he writes it down,,,then we follow it. So as i started my new chapter. i have a clean piece of paper, and  God is writing his plain down for me...But it's not only me...He does it for you.even if you don't trust in God...When people ask me how do i know God is real...Well this is what i say...Let's say you found a watch on a tree stump..and you came across it..What do you think...Oh someone left it..Because you know that someone made the watch at a factory or by hand right..So you are saying the watch didn't just have parts that floated and came together..No you know someone had to make it. and have the idea and create..Soooo after reading that...You have to think there must of been a person who made the earth...EXA right...because if you are saying no..your saying the same thing about the watch if the watch didn't just appear on that tree stump..the earth didn't just appear..YOU know someone must have made it!!!! So as i start me new Chapter and you.. Know that God has a plain for you,,and that he will lead you!!

A moment i will never forget!!!!

This is a chat my cuz and i had a few min ago (josie is my cuz) (me is well me)


me.nothing much
after you look at my instagrm i want to talk to you
and it's NOT bad this time

 Josie:  I just did, and I saw you picture... What happened???

me:  so you know yesterday was Grandma rose's birthday

Josie:  yeah

 me:  well i made a book on the email i got from her and i was looking at it befoiure bed. and i started crying really bad. and i took out the funeral pics, and i cried even harder. so i prayed and asked god to help me not to b so selfish about Rose being in heaven...and i asked him to forgive mei also asked  jesus to put his hand on my heart. nd i looked over to my window and saw a bright star...and i felt like something was on my heart, then i relized it was jeaus. and i calmed down. then when i loked back over the str was gone. and i flt like Jesus kept his hand on my heart. and i feel asleep i have a whole new perspict on Jesus and i KNOW it was him lastnight i have never had someting like that happen BUT I KNOW IT WAS JESUS CHRIST
i felt him on my heart

 Josie:  OhMyGosh!!  Hannah! That is amazing!! I'll tell you something! I am positive that was Jesus!!! That's amazing!!!

 me:  i know and today i feel like there is NOTHING on my heart except peace and joy i think Jesus took everything from my heart and left the PEACE AND JOY!!!!!

Josie:  Yes Yes!!!!!!  I'm so happy for you!! So happy that that happened to you!!! It was a beautiful moment!!!

me:  i know i have never felt so at peace
 Josie:  
 me:  i feel so changed

Josie:  Just remember that even though you feel like this today, tomorrow you could feel kinda down... You just gotta keep clinging to Jesus!!

me:  i know

   me:  i will always remember last night

Josie:  I imgaine you will!!! Those moments are unforgettable!

Your the leader and i'll follow you!

You know when people have hard times, whether it's losing someone...Finding out that you got cheated on...Having a childhood taken away...feeling o far from God and you feel like there is no hope....Do you know that there is a physical man that can take all of that away...It's true and you may feel so lost. but when you look in the Bible you can look up  

Romans 8:28

English Standard Version (ESV)

²⁸ And we know that for those who love God all things work together for good,^[a] for those who are called according to his purpose.

and it's true, When you seek God he has a plain for you. God is the leader of all of us and all or hearts. He LOVES you and me. in fact he loved us so much. That he gave a son....Do you know who i mean....Hint.. He came in human form..He was born to a virgin Named Mary...and he was hung on a cross and rose in 3 days... His name is JESUS!!!! he loved us so much that he died for us. He is the leader,,and we are his sheep... He leads us with a yolk, we are the oxen that follow.... So when you fell upset or anything think about Jesus loving you!!!!

JESUS LOVES YOU AND I DO TO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

For Sale

Hey ya'll,
  i am tring to sell homemade earrings and necklaces if you would like a pair text me at (432) 218-3756 i am selling them for $5 to $8 here is what i have so far!

Love
Hannah

What are we truly doing with Faith?

In the book of James there are things that can relate to us like what James 1:2 -8 says

        “My brothers and sisters, when you have many kinds of troubles, you should be full of joy, ³ because you know that these troubles test your faith, and this will give you patience. ⁴ Let your patience show itself perfectly in what you do. Then you will be perfect and complete and will have everything you need. ⁵ But if any of you needs wisdom, you should ask God for it. He is generous to everyone and will give you wisdom without criticizing you. ⁶ But when you ask God, you must believe and not doubt. Anyone who doubts is like a wave in the sea, blown up and down by the wind. ^7-8 Such doubters are thinking two different things at the same time, and they cannot decide about anything they do. They should not think they will receive anything from the Lord.” 

          What that is talking about is when your going through things, like I did when  My neighbor said she was made at me . Or when people are trying to find there self , and who they really are. When we have doubts about a test or if what you are wearing is ok.  Or most ignorantly if you have a doubt that Jesus rose from the cross James 1:6 it talks about how that is  wave lifting higher and higher.  But Jesus like like the Wisdom when you ask for it He will help you bring that wave down to a calm sea that knows that when it has a wave coming it will have the Wisdom to know what to do and how to handle it.  The wind like satin he tries to rise up your problems and make then to hard to face that when you try  to face them it’s hard to. But if you use God’s wisdom you can calm your sea of your heart, 

   Or like James 1:12-15  says “When people are tempted and still continue strong, they should be happy. After they have proved their faith, God will reward them with life forever. God promised this to all those who love him. ¹³ When people are tempted, they should not say, “God is tempting me.” Evil cannot tempt God, and God himself does not tempt anyone. ¹⁴ But people are tempted when their own evil desire leads them away and traps them. ¹⁵ This desire leads to sin, and then the sin grows and brings death…

    And that is true God doesn’t bring the temptation of us as humans and as sinners  to sin agented God like this verse in Jams 1:16-18 says “My dear brothers and sisters, do not be fooled about this. ¹⁷ Every good action and every perfect gift is from God. These good gifts come down from the Creator of the sun, moon, and stars, who does not change like their shifting shadows. ¹⁸ God decided to give us life through the word of truth so we might be the most important of all the things he made.”

   So even when we have a wave or we are tempted James says that God doesn’t want us to suffer. And that he wants up to be happy, and his most impotent and beautiful gift is Jesus! He loved us so much and God wanted to give us that gift of  life so that even though we have waves or temptations, JESUS IS ARE GIFT OF LIFE!!!!! Satan  wants our Waves to be HUGE and go forever, but When we have the wisdom and love of God and we trust and accept his gift that is free, and we are free from death. We have no more shadows that we need to be scared of , and we can trust that God gave is more then we can ever pay  for. We don’t need to hide from our waves, or our shadow, Because we have God’s gift and his Wisdom!!! J

By

Hannah

Rose

A Passing that hurt my heart

A lot of things have been going on, For starters My Great Grandma Rose passed away on Dec 19/12, The last few weeks with her was hard. It all started Dec/5/12 She wasn't feeling well so she went to the ER. in the ICU. and that was a Monday. I can back Thursday Dec/18/12. And Grandma wasn't remembering anything! But i went to go see her with my Grandpa G.  When i walked in she was pale. And she slowly started to remember things. Then she said "Hannah Rose" and i told her she was right! She was really pale! Then i left so she could sleep. But when i tried she held my hand tighter! She didn't want me to leave, and that broke my heart because i didn't want her to leave! I promised her i would be back the next day. Friday we didn't think she was going to make in when i walked in she was in a lot of pain. She kept saying she wanted to die. And while, and  we were helping her. She asked for her already passed away husband Grand-dad Max, and my Grandpa G told her he was in heaven! And She said "He said he is waiting for me in Heaven" and she kept saying i want to go let me go! That broke my heart, But i trusted in God,So Saturday i came and this time i was spending the night with her. When i walked in she Gladly said "My Hannah Rose is gonna stay with me and sing for me!" My Aunt stayed as well. Great Grandma Rose said "God is giving me a second chance" She was happy so around 7:00 pm she asked me to sing "Jesus loves me" for her. and i did. then my Aunt and i read Bible Verses to her. And i held her and and i sang some more songs for her, and some with me. Then she said "I love my Hannah Rose" and that melted my heart in a good way. I told her i loved her to then she  was  hungry so the nurse gave her a cherry pop. And i gave her a bit of Juice. Around 12:30 or 1:00 Am we left so she could sleep. i spent the night at my Aunt, and all morningin till 4:00am posting and tweeting about that day. I feel asleep. i went to there church, before my family and i left after, we stopped by and said Goodbye to her. And i gave her a hug, and she said "I'm gonna live" Four days later she was in rehab, and she was doing so well, but on Wed/Dec/19/12 She passed away. That night was my Christmas party and i was sad, bobby came over and some friends, and he told his Wife and i broke down The next day i went back but this time in sadness. I miss her and Love her, but she is with God and she is safe. But this year is hard, she was suppose  to come home for Christmas, and in a way she is forever. I had two Funerals and i just got back from TueSon, and i still can't believe it. please pray for my family and i
                                                     Love
                                              Hannah "Rose"