Sad and Alone.

The past few weeks i have been feeling sad, and alone. i see all the love around me. Like my Sunday school teacher and her just adopted baby...and it makes me sad, because her love torawds her, and she isn't even her biological baby. her love is no different.....and i love seeing that baby's face when her mama says she loves her. When my parents lost two girls my dad didn't want anymore kids, and i don't balm him.....But i am so so thankful that they adopted me. But i feel so out of place and so different. In the bible God says that he loves us no matter how we look or anything...but my family is split apart my oldest two brothers don't talk to me anymore. they are moving farther away from me. i feel like it was my fault. that if i never talked to them and asked them about a verse they would still be Christians....God is so amazing and loving i don't know why he won't stop this. because he HAS the power to....so i read in the bible that God puts us through trials to make us stronger. then i thought. "He is giving me to much i can't handle this i can't TAKE IT!!!" but then God says he NEVER gives us more then we can handle. We will feel left alone and alone like i do right now. But God says it's just a emotion that will pass...But when will it pass when will it go away!!!We only see a near dot of our picture of our path,,,,but God sees the WHOLE thing!!!!! and it's so hard for me to understand that. God says to be a child at heart.....not to act like one but a child's heart is simple..not hard. We make it harder then it really is. there are tears ready to come out of my eyes as i write this, but God doesn't care about that. He cars about my loving him, and keeping him in my heart. 
                                                  Last Weds Aug/22/12 
And my youth pastor was talking about Jesus going to eat with Simon, and there was a woman who was a sinner. and she went to God. she started to cry.and they fell on Jesus' feet, and she washed them with her feet. and dried them with her feet. and kissed them,,as she was doing this. Simon thought in his mind. "Why is God letting her do this. doesn't she know all the sins she has done, and that she is a sinner" And Jesus told him that he knew. then he said to the woman."your sins are forgiven, because of your faith. it has saved you today. get up and go in peace!" And i was like wow my faith your faith, can save us. because we go through Jesus. So as i am crying and feeling sad i can know God loves me. I have never been/ or felt true Joy. and i want to i HATE feeling sad and crying all the time. i try to bottle things up. Yes sometimes i talk to my Sunday school teacher...but i feel weak when i ask for help and when i cry....But God say "He who is weak is strong in the Lord!" if that's true when we feel sad or anything we are stronger with God..So as I'm crying i am getting stronger in God!!!!
                                                            Prayer Request  
Please pray for me as i feel so upset. i am going through a battle that has been going on for a VERY LONG TIME!!!! and i want to give up. So please pray i will get stronger and will be able to fight this! battle and that in the end it will feel like its worth it!!!
                                                Love 
                                              Hannah

Lead me to the cross

my siblings had a VBS and someone asked me to sing on the last day because they herd i loved to sing so i sang lead me to the cross because i was saved on this song and it has a true meaning of all we need to do is ask god to lead the way for our paths and trust in him. So enjoy