A lot to handle

So my last post I told you guys about my sisters and I made a vid for them I would like to share its my YouTube Chennel and its called To my Sisters we decided today that the song Rollor Coster by Luke Bryan is our song because that whole song describes us very well. I am so excited about where this sisterhood goes and how God uses us for other people! We have a very rare thing that happened to us, and for that I am truly grateful. They have already seen some sides of me that no one has or it takes a long time for someone to see me like that. The more I talk to them the more I see the love they have for me. They could of said they didn't want to meet me because they weren't ready or because I was in the past they didn't need me. But they opened and allowed me to be a part of their lives. I don't ever wanna lose them. And I know with God I won't, because of it wasn't for God we wouldn't be on day five of our relationship! I know it's hard to believe that God is real or that He cares about you, maybe something so bad happened, or you went or is going on a dark pat, or maybe your like me you can get frustrated easy it just have a bunch of emotions at one and you can't find a way to tame them. Or maybe you don't know about this person I call God but you really look at all the mistakes you have made you will miss out on the blessings Instead look to the positive side of life if you haven't made a personal relationship with God if you are breathing right now it's not too late to accept Him as your savior. Or if your just having a hard time and don't know where to go, God knows I never would of found out about Kristina and Raisa if it wasn't for God and his plan  but it also took a lot of faith to trust in God and allow him to work in my life. we may never get answers to our questions about Zamfira or if we have more siblings, But God knows and that is  all that matters! 

Best birthday ever

So today is my birthday and my parents took me out to breakfast, and as we waited for the food my parents gave me a document and it said I was the forth pregnancy so inessential wait what that means I have siblings and my parents got teary eyed and gave me pictures and I look at them and these two girls looked liked me. So I kept looking and then saw pictures of them in 2015 and I was like cool they are still alive and well. My parents then told me that the girls found out last night about me and that they wanted to skype me and meet me. I started crying because they wanted to see me. It meant so much to me. So today we talked for five hours and texted and all that good stuff I am so honored and thankful for my two older sisters. I am still pretty shocked and like wow. Today has been the most emotional, amazing. Fantastic, puzzle peaicing, God sent, best gift ever. Today is a fauna will always remember, I Love you Raisa and Kristiana I am proud to be your younger  sister.. Sisters forever!!!!!!!