So June 21-26 was camp, and i would of shared about it sooner but i have been crazy busy with work so here i am. So camp. i have gone three years in a row and hands down this year was the most moving, wonderful, God filled, life changing year out of all three years. and i am gonna tell you why. This year it was called "What's Your Story" and the he guy who spoke this year His name was Kurt, and the first thing you would say is how cool his outfits are lol :) But when he spoke and he talked about God. You knew he was the real deal. He had a ruff life, but he never gave up. The first night he talked about the Alabaster Jar, and how the woman whom Jesus forgave threw her's away. When she could of very well kelp it on her shelf and when times got hard enough she could of used it, but she didn't she got rid of it. And she wept when she saw Jesus and washed his feet with her tears, and dried it with her hair. After that sermon my heart was heavy Because i started thinking that i didn't have a story. So the first two days i felt so far from God and i felt like he was leaving me. I felt all the pain i had put away for so long. It at last came out and came out hard. everytime Trent did worship and i saw the words Darkness, or Empty i cried, I couldn't even sing. All i could do was cry. I had many people talk to me but the Four people who are still in my thoughts are Gina My Sunday school teacher, Frank a guy who came for the day then told his story and left that night, Bethney a new friend, and Kurt a new friend and speaker.
Miss Gina talked from the first day to the end and even now. i told her why i didn;t think my story was worth telling and that no one would want to hear. She told me that Jesus let the things that did for a reason and that i am feeling the Guilt and pain because i am tricking myself that it was my fault, and it wasn't. she kept praying for me, and she never gave up on me.
Frank was a guy whom i met on the 23 At night every night after worship we would do a fire and an adult would tell their story. an Frank was the person that night, But at the time i didn't know that. I saw a Faithful guy who smiled and laughed all that day and i could see Jesus in Him the moment i saw him. So i was putting my stuff on a chair and i was going over my music and i saw him sitting by me. i thought in my mind I really want to say hi, but i don;t want him to think i strang, or a bother. But i went and said hi anyways, and i told him that i was sorry for not being happy i was struggling, he asked why and i told him what i told miss Gina, and he said the same thing.But he also said that i could be a light in my family. But to ALWAYS LOVE JESUS no matter what. Later that night he told his story and he had a ruff life but he was a light in his family and because of Jesus loving him and Frank not giving up his family are Christians.
Franks introduced me to Betheny, and her life was like mine and i told her my story. We prayed and had a very emotional prayer, but God placed the same words and Gina, and Frank, and i was like wow.
At last Kurt. He had been speaking four nights now and the first day i was in tears and asked to talk to him, But he was three days late :) When we at last got to i told him about my story, and he told me some of his, and some was the same same some was different, and he told me Everything comes back to the alabaster Jar, she could of put it back on her shelf and when things got hard she could have used it, but when she repented to Jesus she poured it out. and never looked at it again, He told me there were two kinds of Guilt. Fake guilt and gult. Fake guilt is when you think it was your fault and you blame yourself, and guilt is when you feel bad for a moment but then it's gone. and i had Fake guilt. and that my alabaster jar was guilt, and i needed to let it go pour it out and never go back, then an hour later was his sermon and before it even started i felt a burning in my heart. and during the service he talked about what we talked about with the alabaster jar and how i can be a light in my family. i left and cried so hard for an hour and i gave it up. I told miss Gina and she cried. and said she was praying for me during the whole time, after Frank's story i found him and said thank you and gave me a hug, then found Kurt and told him i that i emptied my alabaster jar and let it go. He told me that he was proud of me. and that i can be a light in my family. Then next day they could see a change in me i felt different, I made new friends whom even now have a wonderful friendship and faith filled relationship. that day that everyone saw a difference in me God used me for someone else and i was able to be used by him, and show God through me, and i was able to make three new songs, i will put a new post for that, But when things get hard i remember this year at camp and Kurt and our talk along with everyone else and i feel like i'm at camp.
My Story
When i was seven i was saved, my papa showed me the stars and told me that we are like the stars we are God's children and he knows everyone of us. after he passed i was at home and i looked at the stars and remembered what he told me and i wanted to be a child of him, so i went to my parents and i got saved. after being saved life was hard all my life people did things to me i did things to myself and try to leave God, but i couldn't he would 't let me go. And now i am changed and i got baptized last year, and yes i have lost people in my life, and yes i have done things, but we all do, But the best part is that GOD LOVES US EVEN MORE WHEN WE MESS UP. i am trying to be a light in my family and at work, and i will never give up. i am willing to give my life if that is what it takes if someone asks me what's my religion i will say christian, i love Jesus and i love him even more knowing that even when i mess up God still loves me and will never give up. Thank you Jesus for my life, and my reason for being here.
Thank you to my LORD, savior, and the man who saved me life Jesus Christ. To My father God to Brian, Miss Gina, Frank, Betheny, and Kurt, And to everyone in my life now i love you guys, thank you for a life changing experience. I will never forget it.
A Daughter of Jesus
Hannah Rose Amelung
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