So two nights ago I just had a really bad Sunday. I cried all day even at church. I was in so much pain there was so much pressure. My heart felt like it was a stone instead of a beating heart. There was so much on my heart that I blew. And one of my friends saw me hurting as hard as a tried to hide it I couldn't her name is Sophia (she is married to Bobby I have told you about them before) she came up to me and asked me what was wrong an I told her an she told me that God loves me because I was his Daughter. An that the things that happened to me wasn't my fault. She told me that she believes in me. An that when it's time I will be forgiven. Then later that night Brian pastor of Cookson Creek (the church I sing for) came up to me an we talked as well. He also asks me about school and how it's going. He cares about my education as much as my parents do. After his sermon he asked if anyone needed to come pray to come up an he would pray with them, an he looked at me the whole time. And to be honest I knew God wanted me to. There was a pull At my heart but I couldn't go. After I got home I went to my room an cried so hard. I asked friends to pray for me an they did Sophia sent me verses to read and I read them. Now you may be wondering what am I talking about. Well
1) A family member found out he has cancer
2) last Thanksgiving I was In a really tough spot in my life and my Aunt tried to help, but I wouldn't let her and I hurt Her really bad. I am better now an I asked for her to forgive me. But she hasn't talked to me and this year will be a full year bit talking to her.
3) this will be our second year without Grandma rose and I still miss her so much.
An 4) there are some things that I look back an say if I didn't do this...this wouldn't of happened blaming myself.
After I read some verses I started feeling better. Even though I was up till 5am crying still I was feeling better. Then yesterday one of my siblings got saved. Today my heart isn't heavy it feels normal and it's thanks to God an my friends You see even though all this is weighing on me I can't feel it anymore because God has it. I keep saying if you need help I am here for you an I mean it all you have to do is comment and I'll respond!! I know this post is a little all over but just remember God loves you and he always will turn a heavy heart into a feather ❤️
