Other things from camp

So it's been a few weeks since camp now, and I still feel at peace with Jesus. Ya I have messed up a little but we all do. I have been thinking about camp a lot these last few weeks and looking back on what God has done in my life. I keep thinking about my talk with Kurt, Frank, Bethny. And Miss Gina. But most of all mine and Kurts talk. After emptying my alabaster jar that night. When we had our cabin talk I shared my story and told my cabin about what my life felt like after And the next day Kurt came up to me and told me that he herd I told my story and how it was awesome and how proud of me he was, and then Miss Gina came up and gave me a huge and told me how proud she was. And I remember thinking  dose everyone know that I shared my story last night, Kurt, Miss Gina, Bryan. But I knew most of all that Jesus knew I told my story because of him. An after I did I had a lot of people tell me that they had some of the same problems of what happened to them, and asked me to pray for them. Like Kurt, Miss Gina, Frank and Bethney said You never know your story may help others see that they are not the only ones going through it if they see how your dealing with it then they can do the same and they were right . 

    Another thing that still is so moving was the last night of camp there were two days that changed my life forever. The night of mine and Kunrts talk and the service, and the last  night of camp. Before Kurt started to talk he said Everyone is gonna move tonight. There will not be one person who has not moved. There are three groups 1 The people who need to receave Christ. 2 the people who need to be baptized. And 3 the people who need Boldness. And he was right I was crying not because I was sad but because not one person rejected God. I was in the Boldness! I needed boldness to come back in this world and not be the old Hannah, but the Daughter of Jesus Hannah. When the song "lead me to the cross" played and it says ' bring me to my knees where your love poured out' for the first time in my life I dropped on my knees and prayed to God I didn't care who was around it was just God. And I. I was the last one to get up and Miss Gina found me she said I was burning up, and I honestly think it was Jesus! She asked me what was wrong and I told her that I was scared that this year would end up like all the others I would come back into reality and be the old Hannah and I emptyed my alabaster jar I didn't have it and I didn't want a new one. She understood and told me to think about what Kurt talked about boldness to be that even when things get tough. Jesus is there to lean on. And she was right. And so was Kurt. He blessed me in a big way that no one had ever I know that Jesus was working in his heart. And in mine The last day of camp In the morning we had baptisiam we baptized 40 people that morning and I think like 30 that night ( I think but it was a BIG number ) point is we had so many new brothers and sisters in Christ!  I had a friend who struggled in her life and for two years I poured Into her and guess what Kurt baptized her! And he baptized my new friends. The very first night people moved and I saw Jesus working, I still can't believe that this year was hands down the best. Not only for me but for so many others. We all are gonna have bad days and hard days but Jesus loves us guys always ask him for love for forgiveness. The day I got back from camp and I got a letter that hit me hard it felt like a bolet hit my heart and that I had a HUGE hole. And I felt betried, and I thought about camp and I didn't hurt anymore ya I felt like what I had to say didn't matter or what I felt, but I love her no matter what she did. Do I forgive her yes I do. Dose it still hurt a little now that I get letters and she talks about it ya. But I Iove her because she is a child and beautiful daughter of Christ. My sin is no better then her's to Jesus it's all the same! But remembering camp got me through to the heart. Because thinking about it staying in that point in time is what got me through it. Everyday I pray for everyone at camp. I also pray that when things get hard or when it's just a normal day that I remember my talks and how much I felt blessed  And that I am still feeling that . I love that God can take people like Kurt put them at a camp for a week and change a life in one night Jesus moves through people in so many amezing ways. I still can't thank him enough for my youth pastor Bryan, and for Miss Gina, Frank, Bethney, Kurt, Trent, my new friends, my church, and best of all Jesus Christ! If you think that this whole Christian thing isn't for you....your wrong if you give God a chance he can change for for the rest of your life. I remember Kurt saying when you get saved at the ages of 6,7,8 or even 9. You don't understand the impact that sin can have on you, and what it can really can do to you! Unlike getting saved at like 17,18 or 19 and he is right I got saved at 7 and I never knew the impact of other people's sin and my own could do. But I know that no matter what age God loves us and will NEVER leave us! You may read this and. Not feel a thing if that is the right answer then pray to God to open your heart and then read. I don't share this just to tell you what camp did for me, or what I got out of the talks I had with Everyone. I blog to share about God to tell you that he LOVES you  now more then ever. Yes there will be rough times but he is there! I don't tell you about mine and Kurt's talk just to talk about it but to tell you what God did and said through a guy who could understand me and who loves Jesus so much that he was willing to help open my eyes. Or through Miss Gina and frank and Bethney. I don't tell you just for the sake  of telling, but to show you out of Four people God said the same thing but in differnt ways that I could understand. Kurt didn't talk about our talk in his sermon to embarrass me or make me mad. He said to tell people so that they know their not the only ones who can be a light in their family or for people  who need to empty their alabaster jar. Or to hit it to me nine times as hard to really push me to want to do that. And after doing that I feel free like a HUGE weight has been lifted off that I had been caring for a long time. If Jesus can take a Rag like me and use me for something great. He can use you for something you never thought of and maybe save someone's life. That's why I blog that's why I'm sharing you my camp experience, and I prsyvthat it blesses you and tells you that you have someone there all the time 

   love a Daughter of Jeusus

        Hannah Rose

Pics from camp an the last few weeks

Me, D, Shade. , Aj, and Raven

All of us the last day of camp 

Savannah, me , D, Aj, and Shade 

Out boulton, for church after camp my youth pastor baptizing from camp

All the pic of me, D, shade, Aj, and Raven

Cj 

D, and me wearing his sunglasses 

Aj, Cj, me , D, Shade, Ds sister. And savannah 

 D, and I 

Aj and I 

Savannah, D , and Shade taking selfies

Blair and I from camp 

Here are some pictures from camp and with my new friends I love then so much I will have a post about each of then when I get the time 

Lightning

Have you ever just sat and watched lightning from far away? Well I am right now. It's 1:17am right now and I am looking outside and there is lightning behind the mt. Have you ever thought of lightning being like our lives? You may be like what is she talking about well.. Think about it.... We say that our human lives are a flash live one moment gone the next just like lightning. It's here one moment gone the next until a different one strikes. Never the same bolt. Have you ever had a dream that you wanted to go for, but never had the guts to make it happen, or was just to scared to reach for it. And then you wish you did? Or did you ever go back on a word and later say man I should of done that. Or said goodbye. Or see you tomorrow an there's no tomorrow? There's always if I did this then this would of happened. Or if I stayed one more day I could of been there to be with her before she passed. We think about everything after it happens. We don't think about the before. But God does. He knows why you didn't go or why you didn't say something that could of changed the situation. Instead of saying the what ifs why don't we say yes....yes I'll help you....yes I will go to your ball game... Yes I'll stay with you tonight in the HP so your not alone. Our lives will be over before we know it like a flash if lightning. Why don't we start making it count ya life is busy life is hard. But can't we take ten minutes to pray or five to ask Jesus into your life. Or an hour or two for church every Sunday morning. And have a family dinner after. Or take a week an to church camp. That year just might be your year like this one was mine. Ya life can get in the way but you don't have to let it. Don't give up so easily don't give in to the shroud of  you should love your family yes even the ones who hurt you . Love your friends...LOVE JESUS and if you don't know him you can today. Do you know that you that you know if you were to die today that you are going to Heaven?! Or are you asking your self will I? Well if you don't know say that prayer follow Jesus love him so then you do know 100%. Is life perfect and easy after being saved....being honest no, but it's so worth it. Know  that he loves us even more WHEN WE MESS UP! Why? Because we are his children, his lambs and he is our shepherd, he is our umbrella when it's raining. He's out shelter when we don't have a home. He is the breathtaking man who gave HIs life or all of us. He knew what was coming and he could of easily said wow father I'm not doing this BUT HE DIDN'T...he didn't give up on us. So don't give up  on life. Don't give up on friends . Or family.  Don't give up your faith. Don't give up your dreams. Or your plans to do things with your day. Because like lightning you never know when you'll strike and leave this earth! 

Our Stories

So my new album is about our stories, and how Christ can change us Here are three new songs i write at camp.

                                                                  A's Story
                                                                  Song #4
                                            Whenever you feel alone, i am here
                                          When your mom is drinking i am here
                                        When you need to let it go, i am waiting
                                                All my sin is nothing to you.
                                                                oh oh oh
                                                           Nothing to you
                You are here when the rain is falling and i have no umbrella, your my cover.
                                        Your my shelter when i have no home
                                Your my strength when i am weak and have no will 
                                             Help me be a light to you Lord,
                 Let my flam burn, and burn so hot that people can see a difference in me
                         Please don't fail me Lord, for you gave your only son for me
                                   I am alone in this world, but I'm not with you
                                   Fill my heart oh God, and help me to change
                            Not for a moment, or a day, but for the rest of my life.



                                                             Life
                                                          Song #5
                                For the rest of my life i will hold on to you.
                                          I will praise your great name
                                             I Will love you Lord
                    As hard as thing s may get, you are always there for me
             Your my path when i start to wonder off in the wrong direction
                   You are the hand that reaches out when i'm drowning
     Your the voice that tells me no when i want to go down the wrong direction
                     Lord your my net that catches me when i am falling
                           You forgive me as many times as it takes
                     I love you Lord because you died and rose for me


           
                  
                                                             Try
                                                         Song #6
                                   When i try to walk o water, I can't
                                          When i try to heal, I can't
                                 When i try to escape my past i can't
                                          No not without you Lord
                                                   Ohhh Ohhh
                                               No not without you
                               I am nothing compared to what i can be
                                 Your everything yes everything i need
                     I may cry myself to sleep everyday for the rest of my life
                                         I may fail you over and over
                            But Lord, you love me no matter what i do
                                                         Ya
                   You love me everyday of every hour, no matter what i do
                         No matter how many times i fail you love me
                                                         ohhhh
                     God, i am your child, and your my amazing Grace
#6

Camp Cherokee 2014

So June 21-26 was camp, and i would of shared about it sooner but i have been crazy busy with work so here i am. So camp. i have gone three years in a row and hands down this year was the most moving, wonderful, God filled,  life changing year out of all three years. and i am gonna tell you why.  This year it was called "What's Your Story" and the he guy who spoke this year His name was Kurt, and the first thing you would say is how cool his outfits are lol :) But when he spoke and he talked about God. You knew he was the real deal. He had a ruff life, but he never gave up. The first night he talked about the Alabaster Jar, and how the woman whom Jesus forgave threw her's away. When she could of very well kelp it on her shelf and when times got hard enough she could of used it, but she didn't she got rid of it. And she wept when she saw Jesus and washed his feet with her tears, and dried it with her hair. After that sermon my heart was heavy Because i started thinking that i didn't have a story. So the first two days i felt so far from God and i felt like he was leaving me. I felt all the pain i had put away for so long. It at last came out and came out hard. everytime Trent did worship and i saw the words Darkness, or Empty i cried, I couldn't even sing. All i could do was cry. I had many people talk to me but the Four people who are still in my thoughts are Gina My Sunday school teacher, Frank a guy who came for the day then told his story and left that night, Bethney a new friend, and Kurt a new friend and speaker.
   Miss Gina talked from the first day to the end and even now. i told her why i didn;t think my story was worth telling and that no one would want to hear. She told me that Jesus let the things that did for a reason and that i am feeling the Guilt and pain because i am tricking myself that it was my fault, and it wasn't. she kept praying for me, and she never gave up on me.
  Frank was a guy whom i met on the 23 At night every night after worship we would do a fire and an adult would tell their story. an Frank was the person that night, But at the time i didn't know that. I saw a Faithful guy who smiled and laughed all that day and i could see Jesus in Him the moment i saw him. So i was putting my stuff on a chair and i was going over my music and i saw him sitting by me. i thought in my mind I really want to say hi, but i don;t want him to think i strang, or a bother.  But i went and said hi anyways, and i told him that i was sorry for not being happy i was struggling, he asked why and i told him what i told miss Gina, and he said the same thing.But he also said that i could be a light in my family. But to ALWAYS LOVE JESUS no matter what. Later that night he told his story and he had a ruff life but he was a light in his family and because of Jesus loving him and Frank not giving up his family are Christians.
  Franks introduced me to Betheny, and her life was like mine and i told her my story. We prayed and had a very emotional prayer, but God placed the same words and Gina, and Frank, and i was like wow.
  At last Kurt. He had been speaking four nights now and the first day i was in tears and asked to talk to him, But he was three days late :) When we at last got to i told him about my story, and he told me some of his, and some was the same same some was different, and he told me  Everything comes back to the alabaster Jar, she could of put it back on her shelf and when things got hard she could have used it, but when she repented to Jesus she poured it out. and never looked at it again, He told me there were two kinds of Guilt. Fake guilt and gult. Fake guilt is when you think it was your fault and you blame yourself,  and guilt is when you feel bad for a moment but then it's gone. and i had Fake guilt. and that my alabaster jar was guilt, and i needed to let it go pour it out and never go back, then an hour later was his sermon and before it even started i felt a burning in my heart.  and during the service he talked about what we talked about with the alabaster jar and how i can be a light in my family. i left and cried so hard for an hour and i gave it up. I told miss Gina and she cried. and said she was praying for me during the whole time, after Frank's story i found him and said thank you and gave me a hug, then found Kurt and told him i that i emptied my alabaster jar and let it go. He told me that he was proud of me. and that i can be a light in my family. Then next day they could see a change in me i felt different, I made new friends whom even now have a wonderful friendship and faith filled relationship.  that day that everyone  saw a difference in me God used me for someone else and i was able to be used by him, and show God through me, and i was able to make three new songs, i will put a new post for that, But when things get hard i remember this year at camp and Kurt and our talk along with everyone else and i feel like i'm at camp.
                                                                         My Story
When i was seven i was saved, my papa showed me the stars and told me that we are like the stars we are God's children and he knows everyone of us. after he passed i was at home and i looked at the stars and remembered what he told me and i wanted to be a child of him, so i went  to my parents and i got saved. after being saved life was hard all my life people did things to me i did things to myself and try to leave God, but i couldn't he would 't let me go. And now i am changed and i got baptized last year, and yes i have lost people in my life, and yes i have done things, but we all do, But the best part is that GOD LOVES US EVEN MORE WHEN WE MESS UP. i am trying to be a light in my family and at work, and i will never give up. i am willing to give my life if that is what it takes if someone asks me what's my religion i will say christian, i love Jesus and i love him even more knowing that even when i mess up God still loves me and will never give up. Thank you Jesus for my life, and my reason for being here.

 Thank you to my LORD, savior, and the man who saved me life  Jesus Christ. To My father God to Brian, Miss Gina, Frank, Betheny, and Kurt, And to everyone in my life now i love you guys, thank you for a life changing experience. I will never forget it.

                                                       A Daughter of Jesus
                                                      Hannah Rose Amelung