DNow

So Feb 27-March 1st was DNow and a few weeks before I wasn't planning on going, But some of you may remember Kurt from Camp!! If you don't just go back to Camp Cherokee 2014. Anyways He and I were talking on Fb a week before DNow, and he asked me  if I was going. I told him I wasn't sure, and he told me he would love for me to come. So I thought about it for a few days, and I still wasn't sure. Then God placed my teacher and friend Gina to be the host. So then I was like ok God I'll go. So three days before the event I texted Kurt and told him I was coming. So by Thursday Afternoon I started feeling really low and depressed, and I had no clue why. but i could feel myself draining! So I texted a friend just asking her to talk to be about anything so we chatted then by three am I fell asleep. Friday morning I got ready to go and I was still feeling really low. Then it was time to go and on the way while I was driving I was like  God please fix this I don't know why I am so low and sad but please help me fix this.  Then a few min before service Kurt stopped in his tracks and he asked how I was. I told him how I was feeling. and he said that he knew this night was for me. So we  did worship and I tried to give it my all. Then he came up That night he talked about What difference meant and said there were three groups 1) how needed to accept Christ for the first time. 2) you know that you know you are saved but your lukewarm, and 3) you know that you know you are saved and you are right where you need to be with God. and I was lukewarm. The next day we went out and served our community and we went to the pregnancy center but before that Kurt for his second service talked about serving with our heart and praying not just doing it. ok so back to what I was saying by sat afternoon Kurt and I planed to talk and when it was time he didn't make it in time before service and I felt like God wanted me to talk to him  So I cried the whole service because I was disappointed and I still didn't know what was wring with me. Then Kurt came up and his last message was About how God is light and he is unchanging and how He loves us no matter what we do or who we are. Then people started to come up and pray but I refused because I didn't know what to pray Mrs. Gina grabbed my hand and prayed for me. then I tried to. A few moments later I felt an embrace and a guy talking to me at first I thought it was Kurt but then realized it was my Youth Pastor Brian. And he told me how I don't need to let the world define who I am because it tares me down, and how he sees a beautiful young woman who can live for  Christ. and some other things and then he prayed for me. by this time I was crying even more. and I let heart do the talking to God. after service Gina told  to meet them at her house after talking to Kurt. I looked or him and thought he left, but I found him talking to my new friend Ej. so I waited. and he called me over and we caught up about how life was going since camp. and a few things he told me was that sometimes I let myself get distracted. like i'm running and I look to my right and left, or when I drive there is a big window you look out to drive with and you look at the review mirror instead, or like a horse has blinders but my faith blinder are off and looking all around and how when I do that I need to look straight and to see what God wants for me life. and some other things, But it all made sense...I was truly blessed. and felt better. he also told me that when I told him I was coming it blessed him a lot. So I want to tell you that whenever you are confused or just feel down look to God ask him to give you the fruits ( Galatians 5:22-23) he will love you and bless you ever since Saturday night I have been so much more open to God, and He blessed me with a new friend Ej who I know will be there when needed and to help me encourage other people. I am so blessed right now and I am not gonna let the world define me God is going to define who i am!!!!

                                                                       Kurt

                                                                Mrs. Gina and I

                                                                         The theme

                                                                         Kurt and I

                              My group I stayed with and girls from my Sunday school class