Feelings

For a long while i have been hurting. And i might of lost a friend yesterday...and i did last week..,, i don't understand how i lost those friends. But i did... and i guess it was God choice. you know everything that happens to us is for a reason?! i know it's confusing and hard to understand...same here in till i prayed .. i have a book Called 'Not a Fan: my youth pastor wanted me to get it. and i did.. it opened me eyes so much more..i have read about are we Fans of Jesus or Followers you know like a fan knows things and bout lets say Jason Alden and you think you know everthing about him,,maybe you do.but that only amkes you a fan. not a followr same